Thoughts: Hannah's Blog

This year has been really great for me as I keep telling myself. I started this year with expectations as usual and a little bit uncertain of how my future in career would be as I had spent a greater half of the previous year in attending nearly 20 companies with no offer in hand as I finished 2010. Believe me I was frustrated! So I was really looking forward to hearing from God in the new-year service. And He gave me this wonderful promise “I am the Lord who leads you in the way you should go” (Isa 48:17) and He was faithful to His promise all through this year.

I was having plans that if I get placed in any company then I’ll work there, if I didn’t get anywhere then plan B, I will join in some college as Lecturer. But God had the best for me in mind, His plans are always A1 J He gave me dual placement! And led me onto stay with the company in which I was doing internship.

Every month He guided me so well that I felt that I could join with Ezra (one of the prophets in OT) in saying that the hand of the Lord was with me. I used to be always interested in Ezra’s writings whenever he mentions the hand of the Lord (and that was often!) how he was able to say that. I realized it must’ve been something like fingerprint of God wherein in certain situations we encounter things happening in very amazing ways that we get to know with certainty deep in our hearts that it was really the Lord who had done that! Apart from Him, no one else could do it and that assurance would hit you like a fresh breeze that you can say nothing but “Thank you Lord!” and that smile in your face would really depict the state of your heart, whenever you think of what had happened! I had loads of such happenings this year and I am so grateful to God for being so faithful and proving to me time and time again that He is in control and that nothing is impossible with Him.

There have been some hard times too. There were times when I felt that God was silent and I was not getting any answers, times when I felt difficulty in trusting, times when I wavered, times when I had questions, times when I felt lonely and sad but I was never alone. God helped me trust once again, even though I felt like letting go, He just held on all the more tightly to me and never let go of me. The verse that hangs in my cubicle, “How shall I give you up?” (Hosea 11:8) has been my constant support. Through all of this the majority of this year was spent in a state of crazy happiness of being overwhelmed by His unfailing love. Those who had experienced it would nod their heads with a knowing smile. J

Looking forward to the next year with hope in Christ alone. . . .